Facebook Famous Killer

Good morning, beauties.

I was scrolling down my feed on facebook just now and saw an article from fox17 about a woman who neglected her child. Her child has now passed. I won't go into gory details, but I just felt like I had to say something.
I have lost faith in humanity. I honestly have. I suppose that just means we need to trust God all the more.
I just don't understand why...how anyone could do that to their own child. There are some sick people out there, and every day I think there is no more faith for me to lose and then I just lose more. It's like a never ending hole. It never fills up.
My mom works for an adoption organization, so maybe that is why I am so sensitive to these things, but I just don't get it.
This small, barely breathing, Dependant child is yours, and how could you ever let it down? What could possess you to do something like that?
Tears come to my eyes when I think of this because that is a baby. It had so much potential and if you were never going to care for it, then you never deserved it.

Today, please pray for all the children in need. Adopted, foster, neglected, etc.
Pray that they will have the strength to push through and survive. And when they grow older, give them the sense and courage to let go and be held by their heavenly father.

Blessings to you all today.
Thanks for reading, gems.

Top 3 Lies

Hey, everyone.

So today, I am going to prove how much I trust all of you, and see how many of you trust me.
You guys have been with me from the start, and I can't thank you enough for that.
I trust every last one of you.
To prove so, I am going to tell you guys the top 3 lies I have ever told. A couple of them you already know, but here goes. They aren't necessarily in order.

1. "I am fine"
This is one of the ones you already know. I don't remember the last time I was 'fine'. I'm not fine, and I don't know if I ever will be. Life gets hard. That's when God expects us to trust Him the most. When He sends us trials, He just wants us to let go, and be held. I don't know how to do that, sometimes, and I know that when people ask me if I'm okay, my automatic response is "I am fine". Well here's to all of you who have witnessed the lie: I'm not fine. And that's okay. Jesus leads me all the way.

2. I have lied about who I am.
Most of you know that Marisa is a pseudo name. Some of you know what my real name is. One person in particular guessed who I am correctly, and when asked if he was correct, I lied to him and told him he was wrong. I told him I was someone else. I know it was wrong, and at first, it was a joke. But now it haunts me, and I don't know how to tell him the truth. I see him sometimes - he knows me. He just doesn't know it. In fact, he has known me for almost 5 years now, I think. I don't want him to hate me, and I don't know how to tell him who I really am without making him hate me. But the longer I wait, the harder it gets.  Please give me advice. And also pray for me. Pray really hard for me. I am scared of losing someone I never thought I would be afraid to lose.

3. This last one is not so much a lie as an act. And I put it to use daily. There is a certain relative of mine. For the sake of privacy, I will call her L. L is stunning. She is sweet, hardworking, funny, kind, and...non christian. She has gone through a lot in her life and so my other relatives treat her with a higher respect than any of the rest of us. Including me. She has lied to me, and hurt me, and broken me so many times. I am dead-jealous if her and in a way, I wish I could have her life. She gets whatever she wants, everyone likes her, she is smart, and she has hurt me. I think she has a vague idea that she has hurt me, but I have never told her flat out. I have certain friends who encourage me to tell her because if I don't, she will keep hurting me without knowing she is doing it. The problem is this: if I tell her, she will likely tell her father. Her father (being very protective) will likely tell my mother. And my mother will be angry at me. So the lie is this: I love her unconditionally and could never be angry with her. I am so so angry at her, but I can't not love her. I don't want to hurt her despite the fact that she keeps hurting me. Again, please give me advice, and pray. Pray, pray, pray. For her soul, for my heart, and pray that I would have the wisdom to know whether I need to tell her.

So there you have it. My top three lies. I have trusted all of you with this. Now I am asking you to trust me. What are your top 3 lies? Comment, email me, chat me, anything so that I know someone read this. If you don't want anyone to know, I think there is an option under here for an anonymous comment. Please speak. Its confession time.

I hope you all are praying for me as much as I pray for you.
Blessings from Christ.

Post 1

Alrighty! So here is post number one after spring break!
I woke up this morning to the soothing sound of rain dripping on the roof, and then got up and went to breakfast with my cousin. Yesterday's weather was absolutely gorgeous! I wore short sleeves, and I wasn't cold! It was so awesome. I got a nap in-which is nice because I worked 30 hours last week, and I really needed it.
I got absolutely nothing done writing-wise over spring break, so I made a point of writing for awhile this morning. I wrote Sarah Seleky's prompt. You guys should all check her out. She really stimulates the brain.

Today’s Prompt: Write a scene that goes backwards in time. Start at the end, and finish at the start.

As the tears dripped from her eyes, falling like snowflakes on the cold face of her dying friend, Isabel knew two things: first, this was not supposed to have happened. Second, she would have revenge.

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When Isabel fell to the ground, gasping for breath in this new world, she smiled. Looking around, she found herself in a completely different time than 3162. She glanced over at Marcol who was grinning up at the sky like a newborn. He threw his arms around her and lifted her up, spinning her around.

“We did it!” He bellowed, laughing excitedly. Isabel joined him in his glee and together they ran down the hill they had appeared on.

A stone appeared in front of Isabel’s toe, tripping her down. She squealed and Marcol launched himself after her. They both rolled down the hill, giggling like children. When they reached the bottom, Isabel looked over at him, a smile touching her eyes. His own were closed, and a radiant smile still decked his face.

She reached over, pressing a hand to his tanned cheek. “We did it,” she whispered, “We did it.”

When his smile grew no larger, and his voice did not echo in her own ears, Isabel said his name.

“Marcol?” No answer. “Marcol? Come on, this isn’t funny.” Her smile fading, she touched his inner wrist with her thumb, pressing hard, searching for a pulse. Dimly receding, it knocked back into her skin.

Isabel lifted his head up onto her lap. She yelled his name over and over, and when he finally opened his eyes, he smiled, lifted his hand to her face, and closed his eyes again. She glanced down his form, and found a hole, blooming with his hot blood. She could hardly feel the warmth seeping into her clothes as he gave his last breath in this new world.

“Don’t leave me...” she pleaded.

And as the tears dripped from her eyes, falling like snowflakes on the cold face of her dying friend, Isabel knew two things: first, this was not supposed to have happened. Second, she would have revenge.

So there you have it. My prompt for today. If any of you guys decide to write that prompt from today, I would love love love to read what you have. Thanks so much for reading. :)
I wrote quite a bit of poetry last week, so check me out on hellopoetry,com. My name is Marisa Lu Makil, and I would love love to read any of your poetry if you already have an account. :) Thanks again for reading! I love every one of you guys!
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I wish you every blessing this week!

He who testifies to these things says, "Yes, I am coming soon." Amen. Come, Lord Jesus.
-Revelation 22: 20

Spring Break Is Here

Hello, gems.
Happy happy spring break!
I am pretty hyped that spring break is finally here. It means no school, less volunteer activities.
And since it is getting warmer, everyone will be out and about more often which means more money at work. So far I don't have any plans for spring break other than work, but that is so okay with me. It means I have plenty of time to go on long walks, listen to music, and read, read, read. I am very excited.
Mom made a wonderful breakfast this morning of eggs, sausage, and glazed cake donuts. I can't wait to eat it!
The weather is gorgeous, the sun is shining, people are outside, and the flowers are pushing up. Trees are stretching their long branches to the sky begging the sun to come closer and grow their leaves.
Birds are taking to the air, chirping a morning song in the day, and lullabies at night.

Have a blessed spring break. <3

Devotions on Acts 17

Hey, lovelies. I was doing my devotions for tonight and thought I would share.

" 'From one man he created all the nations throughout the whole earth. He decided beforehand when they should rise and fall, and he determined their boundaries.'
(NLT) -Acts 17:26

Do you ever feel like you are just drifting along in life, meandering along without a way or purpose? God created you and determined a reason for your existence. You are special and have value. From the beginning of time He thought you were important and deserved to be included in His grand plan. Ask God to bring His plan into your view. Even if it takes 3 months, 2 years, or a lifetime, continuously ask for God to reveal your purpose to come to fruition."

I know sometimes I can post some pretty sad stuff, but God has a plan for each of us. And if that means going through some dark times to get there, then we just need to grin and bear it. ' The night is darkest just before the Dawn.'

I love you, dears. Have a wonderful week.

Back Stager

Hey, gems.

Sorry for the silence. Lack of inspiration, I guess.
Life update: life was...pretty good up until today. I went to a friend's wedding, and another friend got engaged.
I do feel, though like I am drifting away from my friends. I don't feel like I spend enough time with any of them, and what's worse, I feel like they don't care.
I know they love me - at least I think they do, but sometimes I feel like my friends are pity friends. Or not...pity, just...fairweather, I guess. I don't know. I guess I'm just tired. Tired of life.
I'm tired of feeling like a back - stage worker. Tired of being compassionate, but I can't stop. I'm tired of work, and drama, and the world being centered around money, and I'm tired of being the only one who feels like this.
I feel like there are no more good books in the world, and like there are just no more talented Christian authors anymore. I guess it's time for me to step up, huh?
I wish that I felt like the author people keep telling me I am. I don't feel like my books are good enough. Writing sucks. It really does. But I keep going. I can't stop. It's like a narcotic. It's killing me but I can't stop. Kind of ironic if you think about it.
Anyways, that's my ranting for today. As always, I would lice to hear all of your favorite bible verses, books, etc. And like this post, subscribe, and view daily and check me out on hellopoetry.com. name is Marisa Lu Makil.
Thanks so much.
Blessings

New Phone and Optimism

Hello, gems.

I got a new phone!!! I'm pretty hyped. Its a smartphone-as opposed to a dumb phone. Its a Motorola- not the best phone, but it's about a hundred steps up from the tracfone I had before.
I love being able to access this blog when I want to and not when the laptop us available.
What kinds of phones do you guys have? Also, what are some good apps to have on my phone??? I already have the basics-google stuff, Facebook etc.

Later- 11:00PM
So I know that I post a lot about loneliness and how I feel about myself, but I guess I just needed a little kick in the pants from a good friend to see that how God made me is exactly how I am meant to be.
We. Are. Beautiful. We really are. And we just need to realize that. Maybe this will help. I want you-whoever you are- to go to the nearest mirror, or selfie cam or whatever. But look at yourself. Find something about you that you like. For me, I like my eyes. My eyes are greenish blue. Focus on that one thing, focus on it and never let go. Maybe for you it is your hair or hands, or your cheekbones, but everyone has something about themselves that they like. Hold to that. Now keep looking at that one thing in the mirror and say this out loud. "I belong to a powerful God. I am not perfect- no one is. But to God, I am beautiful beyond compare. I am sinless and lovely in his eyes." There will always be parts about you that you do not like, but we need to focus on the only perfect part of us- God.
God says we are fearfully and wonderfully made. We are made in his image, and there is nothing more beautiful than that- so we have no more right to criticize ourselves than we have to criticize God. Which is to say none.
We are flawless in his vision, and though there is no way to ever have that be the only thing we care about, that needs to be our main focus.
God loves you and that is enough.

Thanks for reading.
Blessings. :)

I'm Back!

Hey, everyone!

How are all of you gems?? :)

I am doing...okay.

This weekend didn't go to well, but that's okay. I got to talk to Hannah, so I am feeling better today.
Anyways, I just thought I should post and tell all of you that I am back from dog-sitting.
Also, message me! I'm bored. :P

Thanks for reading. Listen to the link below. I love it. :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n0JeC-KYMWw

1You have searched me, Lord,

and you know me.

2You know when I sit and when I rise;

you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3You discern my going out and my lying down;

you are familiar with all my ways.

4Before a word is on my tongue

you, Lord, know it completely.

5You hem me in behind and before,

and you lay your hand upon me.

6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,

too lofty for me to attain.

7Where can I go from your Spirit?

Where can I flee from your presence?

8If I go up to the heavens, you are there;

if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

9If I rise on the wings of the dawn,

if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10even there your hand will guide me,

your right hand will hold me fast.

11If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me

and the light become night around me,”

12even the darkness will not be dark to you;

the night will shine like the day,

for darkness is as light to you.

13For you created my inmost being;

you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful,

I know that full well.

~Psalm 139:1-14

Blessings, everyone <3

Used Book Sale!

Okay, okay, okay, breathe, Marisa, breathe.

I GOT NEW BOOKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, so I freaking love books. Like you have no idea.

I am sososososo happy right now. I got The Door Within by Wayne Thomas Batson which I have already read...4 times...And I got Snow Angel by Jamie Carie, The Cure by Athol Dickson (What an unfortunate last name) :P The Wolves of Midwinter by Anne Rice, and Virals by Kathy Reichs.

And then I went into the actual library, and I had 6 books on hold that arrived today. I am in Heaven right now :D Also, K, my cousin, I have corrupted her. She has always hated books, but when we went into the library sale, she picked out like five and went back later to get more.
I feel evil-and all-powerful at the same time. "The all-powerful reader" That should be my name.

Can we please get that trending? Just randomly post on your g+ or FB "The all-powerful reader"

If you are a book nerd, do it. :D Or just do it for fun :D

I went out for lunch with K and N (N is my youngest bro) and M (My sister) and it was pretty fun. Olive burger and onion rings at Franks. :)
I had told a few of you that I may be out of a job pretty soon, but praise be to God, the restaurant is not getting sold-my manager did not get the job in TX, so I am happy. :) Thanks for all the prayers and well-wishes. :) They meant a lot. I am still looking for a new job, though, so prayers are appreciated. Hopefully somewhere where I like my boss would be wonderful. Thank you. :)

Also, I got contacts lenses! I like them so much better than my glasses that I never wore. :P They are a lot more comfortable, and no one can tell that they are there. :P So yeah. That's how my day has gone to so far.

Thanks for reading. :)

Have a wonderful time reading, and writing and all that fun stuff that you normal people do. :)

I will be mostly offline for the next week or so-my cousin K and I are dog-sitting for a friend, so I most likely won't have access to a laptop. :/

Have a blessed week if I don't get to post. :)

Favorite Book Of The Bible

Hey, everyone :)

So I was reading the book of James in the bible today, and I was struck by how sweet and how encouraging the book is.
In Chapter 1, James tells us that trials are meant to be hard-they give us more strength for the harder things that will come later on. God will never give us more than we can handle.

Chapters 2-3, James describes the relationship between faith and works. He teaches that a person of faith without works demonstrates useless faith. What good is a person’s faith if they don’t present it to the world? We should be telling everyone about our faith! It strikes me that yeah, I tell all of you that I am a christian, but in real life? I really don't talk to my friends about it.
A believer’s good works are evidence of their faith in Jesus Christ. He also teaches that everyone is a sinner and that if one of the 10 Commandments are broken, than that person is guilty of breaking every one of them, “For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles in one point, he has become guilty of all” (2:10).

In Chapters 4-5, James gives wise instruction to believers. He said, “Submit to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you”(4:7). 
A faithful believer will desire to follow hard after God in service, obedience, and prayer. In the last chapter James stresses the weight and magnitude of prayer for every believer. He uses the word “Prayer” 7 times, signifying its importance. In the final verse of his book James expresses the magnitude of living faith in action saying:
“My brethren, if any among you strays from the truth and one turns him back, let him know that he who turns a sinner from the error of his way will save his soul from death and will cover a multitude of sins.” (5:19-20).

I really love the book of James. I wish it was longer so that I could read more of it.

What is all of you guys' favorite book of the bible? Please let me know :)

Thanks for reading. :) Like this, subscribe, comment, and have a wonderful day :)

Blessings :)