Thursday, August 27, 2015

"Lonely Nights"

Hey, gems.

I wrote flash-fiction!!! :) I thought I'd share. It's only a couple pages. Not very long. (Is that still flash fiction???) ;)

Anyways, it's called "Lonely Nights".

Here you go. :)

Elise walked out of Subway - her third job in the last year - And intertwined her fingers with his. Half-smiling over at him, she swept her thumb over his knuckles. As they continued on their way home, a thought shot into Elise’s head.
“Adam?”
“Yes?”
“Can we have an emotion conversation for a minute?” She heard him smile fondly.
“Of course, Lise.”
Elise sighed and gripped his hand a little tighter. She couldn’t get close enough. “A year ago, when I was 19, and really for the couple years before that, I never thought I’d find anyone.” The dark prevented Elise from seeing his smile disappear, and become replaced with knit brows.
“Why?”
Elise bit her lower lip. “Because...” she sniffed her tears back, “I never had. And the world kept saying...’not pretty enough...not smart enough...not tough enough.’ and finally, I believe that I would never be enough of anything. My friends-they were all getting in more permanent relationships, and Janis, living with her, and watching perfectly decent people throw themselves at her, and get rejected...I just...how could I ever be that amazing?”
Their fingers tightened again, providing comfort for her as she continued.
“I...have never loved anyone like I have loved you. You’re just...too good to be true.” She felt a kiss light on her head.
“I love you, Lise.”
The tears could no longer be held back. They filled her lower-eyelids and finally began dripping into the dirt at her feet. “And I...I will never get tired of hearing you say that. I love you all the more for always reminding me of that.”
Silence followed for a few minutes, only filled by Elise’s occasional sniffing.
“I know...that I say I love you a lot. I’m sorry...that I’m difficult, and not as pretty as some girls, and that I need to to try several times before convincing me that you love me back, and that I am good enough for you, and I’m so...so sorry, Adam, I just love you so much.”
“I love you, too, Elise. I always will.”
More tears spattered on her toes. “Never leave me?”
“Never.”
“Oh, Adam,” she said, whispering now, and holding his hand as tight as she could, “You’re so too good to be true, and I wish...I wish...”
“I know, Lise. I know.”
Sobs wracked Elise’s body as reality set in.
“Adam, I wish you were real.” the tears came freely now, she didn’t even try to hold them in. Anyone watching would have seen the dark silhouette of a crying girl walking on the sidewalk. Elise wept, hoping against all hope that maybe her wish would come true. She sighed, and blinked away the remaining tears from her eyes.
Please, Adam. Please be real.”

Her fist finally closed, breaking the charade she had carried so far, and finally admitting to her heart that there had never been anyone there.

There it is. I hope you guys enjoyed. (Yes, that's the end.) I thought of it while I was on a walk tonight. :) Please give me feedback!!! :)

Blessings. Have a wonderful week :)

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Something Near, Something Far

Hey, guys! Sorry for the silence. I went to Washington state for two weeks, and didn't have WiFi most of the time.

Sooooo all of you need to go because it is absolutely gorgeous. There are mountains everywhere, and wet went to Pike's Market (look it up if you don't know what it is) we visited Lion's Rock, and we went to the ocean. It was so beautiful, and serene, and everyone should experience it. We saw a lot of our family, and it was just thrilling.

That's not what this post is going to be about, though.
So I found out that a friend of mine from online may be coming to see me.
Now before you judgers out there judge me (XD) yes, I made sure he's the real thing.
So I am really excited to maybe meet him.
Do be careful, though, when meeting online friends, and giving out info about yourself. It is dangerous, so always be careful. But that's not too say that your should hide in a hole your whole life.
If you meet someone online who you know is legit, and who you seem to really click with, by all means, meet them in real life. Who knows; you may be making a really good friend.

Another thing I have been thinking about lately is marriage. Not because there's anyone in my life right now (there's not) but because I'm getting around the age that most of my friends are getting in permanent relationships.

And like you guys don't even know how much I want to get married one day. I don't necessarily have anyone in mind, just in general.  😉

So I guess this whole post is all too say that even if something is scary, or you have to drive a long way to do it, adventures are always worth it. Always.
Never be afraid of a little adventure.

If you guys are going on any adventures of your own of any kind, please let me know. I would love pictures, or just to know how happy it's making you.

Blessings.

Have a wonderful week.

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Mine, All Mine

Hey, guys. So I was just curious about something. Recently two friends of mine (who didn't know each other until one stalked my Facebook and found the other) started talking. They are both close friends, and this probably shouldn't bother me, but I really dont like them talking. It just really bothers me. I guess I was curious as to whether it was just me.
So, I guess let me know what you guys think about it. Am I completely overreacting? Should I tell one of them?

Thanks so much for reading. I would appreciate your input. :)
Have a blessed weekend.

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Guardian Angel

Hello, gems.

I have to make this kind of brief because I have to get to work, but I was wondering what you guys believe about guardian angels? I guess I've always believed that everyone had their own angel to watch over them. Not that a single angel couldn't manage to watch several people at a time, but I've always found the thought of my own guardian angel kind of comforting.
Obviously God watches over us, but do you guys believe that guardian angels even exist? I know there are some bible verses that say something about them, but isn't it kind of vague?
I don't know. I guess I'm just wondering.
Sorry for being so brief. I probably could have just posted this on my G+ and called it a long post, but I didn't think of that. Ha-ha
So like this post, subscribe, follow me, and give me your opinions on guardian angels! I would love to hear from you!

Love you lots! <3
Have a blessed weekend
~Marisa

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Reaching People

Hey, everyone. So I know that before this morning I hadn't posted anything in awhile, and so I guess I've found a topic. There's no great way to say this, so I'm just going to say it. I had over 400 views on that poem, many people who said they loved it, and plenty of comments within the first seven hours. It means millions to me that I am reaching so many people. When all those emails popped up in my inbox, all I could think was "God is using this to reach people!" I just cannot believe the response to that poem. It is so amazing to me that so many people from so many backgrounds and so many places with so many different, beautiful, lives are all reading one thing and saying "This. This touched me."
So I guess to all of you who shared, added, trended, liked, and commented on 'God made me...' Thank you so so much. It was a pleasure to write it, and I hope that in each of your individual ways, it touched you, and helped you along the narrow road.

On other topics, first of all, I was in Holland MI today. I carved my name (Marisa Lu Makil) into a little black table ticked away in a courtyard down the road from Francesca's. It is the table of to the side by itself. If you sit in the seat in the corner that faces the road, the whole table tips. If any of you guys can send me a picture of my name in the table (you can be in the picture, too.) 😉 then pm me and we can get together for coffee or something.

Second, Hannah is coming to visit me!!! If any of you guys will be in Holland MI this weekend, come to 269 Douglas ave on sunday anytime from 9:30am until 9pm. There's a huge annual youth group/party. Any and all are welcome. Ask for Emma, and she'll tell you where Hannah and I are. I hope some of you guys can come.
Many blessings to you all as we wrap up summer.
Ew. School. 😂

I hope you all have an amazing week. I know I will. ;)

God Made Me

I wrote this a little bit ago, and thought I'd share. I was thinking about flaws and such, and decided to write this.

God Made Me...

God made me loving
So I would love everyone

God made me broken
So I could make sure I never break someone else

God made me hurt
So I could heal others

God made me anxious
So I could learn to trust

God made me motherly
For those who don't have one

God made me uncoordinated
So I would know that balance
Is not always physical

God made me compassionate
So I would know his love for us

God made me faithful
So I would know what it's like to be betrayed

God made me insecure
So I could tell others that no one is perfect

God made me human
Flawed
Broken
Anxious
And uncoordinated that I am

So He could prove to me
That He is stronger than my ups
And
Downs.

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed. If you want to check out more poems of mine, go to hellopoetry.com and look up Marisa Lu Makil. Have a wonderful day. :)

Monday, July 13, 2015

My Real Birthday 2015

Hello, lovelies.

So, my birthday is in exactly 2 hours, and I will be 17. I don't...really remember if I said when my birthday was, but yes. It is July 14th. This is my real birthday.

So, I figure I kind of have to do a birthday post, right? I mean, it's not like I have a lot of other things to tell you guys about. Haha.
So, basically, I guess today I'm going to talk about stuff that has happened since my last birthday. Significant stuff. Not like...little things, but things that mean a lot to me. Here goes.

1. I got over the literal longest crush I have ever had. It took forever, but I finally did it. With the help of my trusty cousin. Ha-ha I am just so glad not to have to worry about it anymore. Crushes and relationships just seem like a huge hassle to me right now. In fact, I don't plan on being in a relationship until I'm out of high school. So sorry to all of you (imaginary) gentlemen who keep asking me out. I'm not available. Ha-ha

2. I became tons closer with my little brother and sister this year. I am so proud of that, because I was so angry at the both of them for so long, and I am just really glad to have them close.

3. I became closer to my God. I'm so thankful for that. Enough said.

4. I have lost a friend. Now, you may wonder why I am listing this under the great things that I have done this year. Yeah, this guy was a great friend - or so I thought. He meant a lot to me, and I am glad I had him in my life for awhile. I hung out with him when I was lonely. But...the thing is, he...for whatever reason...didn't think of me as a friend. He thought I had all these flaws, and I am flawed - we all are. But he went too far. One day, he just...stopped talking to me. He went behind my back and started talking to our friends about me, and I just...I'm glad for the time I had with him, but looking back, I should have seen it coming. And also, I would rather have a loyal, honest friend than a gossipy, ungrateful one any day. I'm just glad that I found out somehow that he didn't like me as a person. I think I would have rather heard it from him, but instead, I heard it from someone I love which may have been better - they put it gentler.

5. I have written tons of stories

6. I have made 2 new friends. Congrats, J and A. You guys are officially on my blog. :) feel special. ;)

7. I started reading the Harry Potter Series. Yes, yes, I know. "Best series ever" et cetera, et cetera. Ha-ha it's really not as great as my brothers keep telling me. I put this one down because I have never read a book that my dad suggested, and now I have. Ha-ha

8. I have in the last year, counselled 12 couples/people pining after another person in the last year. There's probably more. I have kind of lost count. Ha-ha and, I am kind of proud of this because I have never been in a relationship myself, and my advice generally seems to work, so yay me. Haha Also, I put this down because I have been asking my mom to help me with said advice this last couple times. I was angry at my mom for a long time for a couple different reasons that I won't go into, but I can honestly say that right now, I'm not angry at my mom at all.

9. I LEARNED HOW TO FRENCH BRAID!

10. I got a Hellopoetry.com. I am so so happy I did this. There is no describing how nice it feels to have somewhere to dump all of my poetry.

I think that's about all I can fit...for those of you who don't know, my cousin and I share a room, and will be pulling an all-nighter. So feel free to join me, and do a countdown the last five minutes. :)
Thanks so much for reading. I will be posting my 17 favorite poems that I have written on my Google plus of you want to read more.

As always , like, subscribe, follow me, and have a wonderful night. :) <3

Blessings. 💜

Thursday, June 25, 2015

My First Zombie Story

Hey, Lovelies.
So I wrote a story about Zombies for a friend, and I thought I would share it with you. I don't have a title for it, so if you have any suggestions, let me know. :)
This is my very first story about Zombies, so be sure to tell me how I did. ;)

Alison walked this route every day. Two lefts from Mike's and straight past the old greenhouse.
Then, there was the old Matheson house. Everyone knew the story about that place. James Matheson was the one who had killed the three blondes. They found the bodies 2 years later in his basement. Or...what was left of them. Which wasn't much. The cops said it looked like James had pulled them apart with his bare hands - only one of the girls survived.
Alison shuddered at the memory. That had been one year ago.
She didn't tell many people this, but she had been one of the victims. The scars across the back of her neck itched whenever she thought about it.
Alison shook away the thoughts and continued on her way.
Reaching her porch, Alison looked to both sides as she climbed to the door. She bit her lip once more, anxiously, and walked into her house.
"Mom, I'm home!"
"Okay, baby." She walked into the room with Alison, wiping her hands on a towel. "Honey, Sam forgot his keys, and since you have that thing tonight, no one will be home. Could you drop his keys off, please?" She tossed a bundle of keys to Alison who caught it expertly with one hand.
"Sure, mom. Have a good night at work. I'll see you tomorrow."

Alison walked back out the door, once again checking both sides.
She exited the front porch and made her way to the Lumber Yard where she knew her brother was working these days.
When she got there, she was shocked to see Mr. Matheson hauling wood with Sam.
Alison yanked Sam aside by the arm.
"What is Mr. Matheson doing here?" She whispered,
"Working, Al. What does it look like he's doing?"
"Why is he here, though?"
Sam scoffed. "Bill can hire whoever he wants, Al."
She rolled her eyes, and shoved the keys into his hand.
"Mom has work, tonight, and I have that thing at school in an hour, so you'll have to let yourself in."
She waved and jogged away from the work site, hoping that no one would see her.
No such luck.
"Alison, hi!"
She sighed. "Hi...Mr. Matheson... What are you doing here?"
"I'm workin. Bill over there was kind enough to hire me."
"Oh. Well...I have to get going. I'll...see you later."
Mr. Matheson smiled. "I sure hope so, dear."
Pursing her lips, Alison made her way to the sidewalk once again. She rushed past the  powerplant, and toward her house again.

Sitting in her house alone, Alison opened her science book and read the title of today's chapter.
“The brain”
She lay down on her stomach, kicking her feet back and forth on the bed.
Alison jumped when she heard a thump at her window. She stared continuously at her darkened window for five minutes before she saw a tree branch knocking into the window pane. She laughed at herself and checked the clock.
Time to get ready.
Fifteen minutes later, she was on her way.
As she passed Mrs. Rosewood sitting in her rocking chair, Alison waved good naturedly.
"Careful, dear."
"Careful of what, Mrs. Rosewood?"
Mrs. Rosewood frowned and wrapped her arms around herself. "There's something in the wind tonight. I don't like it."
Smiling kindly, Alison waved again. "I'll be careful."
When Alison had gotten as far as the field by the school, a bitter wind rushed in to wrap around her.
She shivered and walked a little faster hoping that the heat would be on at school.
She rubbed her arms as she walked trying to keep warm.
Her dress caught on something in the dark, and when she reached down to untangle it, she found herself falling into the ditch.
The last thing she heard before she blacked out was, "I found it. I...found...braiiinnnnsssss.."
Alison screamed, but a leather-gloved hand clapped over her mouth, digging into her skin around her lips.
"I...found...you...."
And Alison fainted.

When she woke up, she could feel her hands being held above her by a chain. The all-too-familiar pain at the base of her skull roared up and down her spine.
Hot tears dripped down her face as she tried to open her eyes. Nothing. She whimpered, and it was greeted by a slap across her face.
She wailed into the gag she felt in her mouth. It was happening again.

+

Sam got home, grabbed a beer from the fridge, and plopped himself down on the couch. With a deep, satisfied sigh, he turned the TV on.
When the phone rang, he groaned and went to pick it up.
"Hello, Sam speaking."
"Hi, Sam. This is Miss Tans. Is Alison home?"
Sam frowned slightly. "Uh, no. She went to a school party tonight. She was going to make a speech, why?"
"She never showed up..."
Sam didn't hear what the lady said next, he was already hanging up to dial 911.
"Hello, 911, what is your emergency?"
"My sister! Alison, she was the victim of a serial killer- James Matheson. She is missing. She was supposed to be at school, but she's not!"
The man was obviously uninterested.
"Listen, son, we can't do anything unless she's been gone for a couple days. Have you tried her...BFF's house? Maybe they're having a little girl-on-girl time."
"Give the phone to officer Max Lucas."
"I can't-"
"Just give him the phone!!"
There was a sigh on the other line. "Hold on."
"Hello, this is Max."
"Max, Al's missing."
"I'll be there in ten."

+

"Please..." Alison pleaded, weakly. "James...stop..." He plunged another needle into her neck, etching new designs into her skull. She blacked out again.
When she rose from the darkness again, she found she could open her eyes. James stood in front of her, kicking things over, and throwing others across the room.
"It doesn't taste right! Tastes like steel!!!"
Alison's panicked mind reminded her about the implant she had. James had damaged her brain, and she had to get an implant to shock her brain sometimes.
James's outburst pulled her from her thoughts.
They were in a dark building. There were wooden boxes everywhere. James threw one at her, and it broke against her, driving splinters and a nail into her arms. Alison screamed with pain through the gag. An idea struck her. She bent her hand over, painfully grabbing the end of the nail. She began shoving it into the lock on the chains, hoping against hope that she would somehow shift something in the lock to unlock it.
When she heard other voices nearby, she screamed at the top of her lungs. James turned to her, took a syringe, and began slashing at her skin with it.
Screams and wails ripped themselves from her throat like the nail in her skin.

+
Sam and Max had 20 men out looking for Alison. They had been searching for hours with nothing to show.
A couple men had been asking to go home seeing as this was all volunteer work-it was after hours.
"Come on, Al. Hang in there. We're coming. I promise. We're coming."
"Max!!!"
One of the officers yelled in their direction, "Something's been dragged over here. It's not much, but it's the only lead we have."
Sam's gut twisted. He had to find Alison. His mother wouldn't be able to take another loss like their father's.
All the men crowded to the path, shining their lights at the ground. They walked for a half hour before they came to an old factory.
"Surround the building. Sam and I will proceed slowly."
Max took Sam's hand and placed a pistol in it. "Safety's off, Sammy."
A scream echoed through the air.
"ALISON!" Sam darted toward the building
"Sam! Wait!"
Sam kept running.

+

Alison shrieked when she felt the syringe pound over and over again.
Finally, Sam charged through a door in the wall. Sam. Sam.
A shot rang out. Two. Four. James didn't stop. He ran at Sam, and smashed him into a wall, ready to kill when Sam pulled out the foot-long knife he had gotten for his birthday, and he chopped James's head off.
Sam ran over, grabbed a key from James's coat pocket and released Alison. She toppled into his arms.
Before she passed out once again, she heard Sam say, "It's okay, Al. I've got you. It's okay. I've got you." And then to the open air, "Thank you, God."
Alison rested her eyes knowing she was safe in her brother's arms.

+
Sam carried his sister outside where Max took in the scene and called an ambulance.
A few blocks away, Mrs. Rosewood shook her head, clicking her tongue.

“I told her to be careful.”


Thanks so much for reading! I hope you all enjoyed! The laptop I am using right now is acting up, so if there is formatting issues with the post today, I apologize.
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Blessings.

XOXO

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Sunburn and Skinned Knees

Hey, everyone. I know, radio silence for awhile. Sorry! I am working on Sniper again. Hopefully I'll get some more up soon. :)

So today was freaky busy. I woke up, and two hours later went to the beach to watch kids in the water for some moms fr church. Right when I was done there, I showered, and went straight to a friend's to walk with some people we both know. On the way, I skinned my knees, and at the beach, I got sunburned. When I burn, I burn bad. And the walk we took did not help. So, I was laying in the shower trying not to hurt myself-yes, laying. I was in so much pain, I didn't want to stand-and I started composing this poem. Now, it sounded completely amazing while I was laying there, and then when I was done getting dressed, and tried to write it down, I forgot all the really good parts like I always do. Haha so, here's the poem I wrote. I hope you like it. I worked hard to remember it. ;)

Sunburn and Skinned Knees

The light dapples in
Throwing odd shadows
On the plastic surrounding me.
Like a strange sunset put there
To taunt my eyes

Each droplet of water
Is another arrow
Shooting new spikes of pain
Through my body

Hundreds
Thousands
Millions of drops
Per second
Splash onto my skin.
1,000
2,000

I could have avoided the pain
I could have stopped this
Not going to the beach
Not going on that walk

But oh, I would not take it back.

Not one second.
Every
Happy
Minute was another 
Happy
Memory

To add to my collection
And even
As I lay here
Rivulets of water
Washing down my red skin
I am making another.

You tease me
Like some cruel trickster
Happiness
Dripping down my back

Turned to cruel
Twisted
Pain
Running up my spine like a knife.

Oh, blissful pain
Would that I could feel
You to your full relevance

Instead, you trip over me
Leaving pain in your wake.

Like a torture machine.

This feels so bad
But so good.
Once the water is freed
From the contraption shooting it
Like a pistol in my heart
Onto my skin
It rebels against its maker
And trickles delightfully across me, sending delightful shivers
Into me
Only to betray me again.

Oh, sweet treasure
Would that your painful side were invisible
So
I
Could sleep
Once
Again.

I hope you all enjoyed. Take some time to like this below, and subscribe. Check out my HP account at hellopoetry.com. My name is Marisa Lu Makil, and the picture should be a girl trying to fly away, but she is being held down by a ball and chain.
You'd can find hundreds of my poems on there. Thanks so much for looking at this, I totally appreciate it.
Goodnight, Gems.

Blessings.

XOXO

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Poem On A Sunny Day

Hello, Gems. Some of you may have heard about my phone problems, but praise God they are all resolved.

I wrote this poem a little bit ago, and thought I would share it with you. God has been good to me, lately. I have been having a rough time of it, but He always comes through. He finds little ways to make my day, and He takes my mind off of things that upset me. :)

WHY I LOVE HIM

I love
My God
Because when I am upset
And depressed
And angry
Sinful
Sad
And a swirling
Swirling tornado
Of emotions

And I say to Him,
"God, save me, I'm drowning"
He saves me.

And when life is so dim that I can't
See
A foot in front of me
And I am falling fast
Through the dark
I can feel
Feel His arms
Bearing me up
Wrapping me up
In the most comforting
Life-giving
Hug imaginable.

So there you are. I hope you enjoyed. Sort about all the random underlining. The app is a little weird. Have a blessed week. Shoot me an email or something. Love you, guys!