Saturday, March 28, 2015

Back Stager

Hey, gems.

Sorry for the silence. Lack of inspiration, I guess.
Life update: life was...pretty good up until today. I went to a friend's wedding, and another friend got engaged.
I do feel, though like I am drifting away from my friends. I don't feel like I spend enough time with any of them, and what's worse, I feel like they don't care.
I know they love me - at least I think they do, but sometimes I feel like my friends are pity friends. Or not...pity, just...fairweather, I guess. I don't know. I guess I'm just tired. Tired of life.
I'm tired of feeling like a back - stage worker. Tired of being compassionate, but I can't stop. I'm tired of work, and drama, and the world being centered around money, and I'm tired of being the only one who feels like this.
I feel like there are no more good books in the world, and like there are just no more talented Christian authors anymore. I guess it's time for me to step up, huh?
I wish that I felt like the author people keep telling me I am. I don't feel like my books are good enough. Writing sucks. It really does. But I keep going. I can't stop. It's like a narcotic. It's killing me but I can't stop. Kind of ironic if you think about it.
Anyways, that's my ranting for today. As always, I would lice to hear all of your favorite bible verses, books, etc. And like this post, subscribe, and view daily and check me out on name is Marisa Lu Makil.
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