Wednesday, April 30, 2014

**Life Is Good**

Hey, everyone! So I just read through the story that I posted a couple days ago and I am not trying to be super like prideful, but that was REALLY good. Haha I actually had a friend walk up to me and tell me so the day after I wrote it. I seriously can’t believe that I wrote that.

Anyways, I am sitting right now once again in the library and one of my very good friends is right next to me. I cannot often say this, but right now, life is perfect. Yeah, I have sins and troubles, but right now as I am writing this, all of them are fading away and I can just write and listen to music and do my best to help all you out there who are reading this. Life is good.
I don’t know about all of you, but it is so easy for me to go from saying that I am having the best day ever to wanting to hurt someone. Right now, I am having a really good day. I can’t think of anything serious right now that is bugging me. Not anything serious that makes me want to cry. I don’t think that I am making a whole lot of sense right now, so I am just going to sum it all up and say that I am so glad I have all the friends I do. They all mean so much to me, and even just having them sit next to me and not say anything makes my life so much better. Thanks to all of you. You all mean so much to me! I hope we stay friends forever.

Sorry if today’s blogpost has been rather a disappointment to some of you. I just really love my friends. Thanks again, and today think of someone who you love and know that you would be lost without whether it be a family member, boy/girlfriend, best friend or teacher just send them an email, or a chat or a letter, or just tell them in person how much they mean to you. We all love to hear from random people that we inspire them, but I know that it means so much more when a good friend tells you that. Often as a good friend, I forget to tell my best friends how much I love them because I figure that they already know. But everyone needs to hear that they are appreciated and everyone needs to know how much they are needed. Please take my advice. Thanks so much. I hope to hear lots of comments on this one. :)

Make someone’s day <3

God bless.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Panic at the Bible Club

So at Bible Club today, there was a boy who was having a lot of violence problems as far as hitting and yelling and swearing go. I was angry at him and was brinking on frustration when I was given the advice to let him be. I had already been told that he was having a bad day by his classmates and by some of his teachers, but swearing and beating on other people was definitely not the way to take it out. Unprovoked violence is never ever the answer. So, I proceeded to try to talk to him and convince him that he was hurting his friends. He soon would have no friends, I thought to myself.
When the event was almost over, he had decided that he had had enough of everyone. He ran out, and down to the office where his mother usually picks him up from school. Naturally, my cousin and I followed him, both choosing a direction so as to be able to cut him off. We both caught him at the front door, sobbing, tears running down his little red cheeks as he angrily shoved his things into his backpack. We asked him multiple times what was wrong and if he had had a bad day. He refused to answer the first question, and offered only a quick nod at the latter. We eventually coaxed him back to the classroom at the promise of an extra dose of unobserved candy and a quick escape back to the office. He agreed, and soon Bible Club was over.
The tutor dismissed my cousin and I, saying that she would have a talk with his mother. We grudgingly left, as we had been hoping to find out what had been wrong with him. I personally had an idea that it had something to do with home life. Nonetheless, we dragged our feet back to the other children, on the way discussing the child.
Later, when I was standing with the tutor, waiting for my mother, I asked her if she had found out what was wrong with the boy. “Not exactly,” she replied, appearing perplexed. “I told his mother and he refused having ever done any of the things. His mother said ‘shut up! She was not talking to you!’.” I realized that this boy had been struggling with some home things as I had thought. I realized that instead of a harsh hand, he needed a loving shoulder to cry on and many prayers.
I hope this has helped you. It was certainly a lesson to you.

Thanks for reading. God bless.

Monday, April 28, 2014

"With Every Beat of My Broken Heart"

I don’t remember if I have posted this one, but I was going through my google drive and found this. I really like this one. I can’t even believe I am the one who wrote it. Anyways, I hope you enjoy. This one really touched my heart at this time, and I hope it means something to you as well.
With Every Beat of my Broken Heart
Ella hovered her mouse over the photo of Daniel. She frowned at the screen and refrained, simply gazing at the smaller picture. She saw how he leaned into the photo, and remembered his warm embrace. She thought of the last time she saw him, how his hands lingered around her shoulders before he finally let go. She could see him in her mind, asking her to do it again sometime. She remembered nodding and smiling as she reminded him that his car waited outside to bring him home. He waved goodbye and that was the end of it. That was the last time she had seen him.
    She let out a sigh of longing as she recalled his rippling muscles twisting as he struggled to keep up with her at the rink. Skating; that was the last thing she did with him. A deep feeling of longing enveloped her heart as a tear slipped down her face. Why did life have to be so hard? It had all happened so quickly, and now she would never see him again. The man who had done everything for her, and she had ruined it all at the bat of an eyelash. It was over. She had to let him go. He had probably let her go. She would never see him again. Her guardian angel. There was nothing she could do about it. She swept the mouse over to the corner of the screen where she clicked out of the screen, ending her momentary suffering.
    Daniel scrolled his way through the Facebook screen, searching for what he knew would only torture himself. When he found it, he stopped, running his hands through his hair and heaving a sigh. How long had it been? It seemed like forever since he had last seen Ella Bryn, but he knew it to be only two months because he had counted each day since he had received the news: he could not see her anymore. When he opened the text message on his phone, he had smiled, hoping for it to be one of the bright greetings that she always sent his way. What he found was much worse. A note telling him to leave her alone or else. A note telling him that no matter what he said or did, he would never see or hear from her again. He couldn’t. He did not know who the note was from, but whoever it was had found his weakest link. There was nothing he could do except wait. Wait for God to do something. And for all he knew, that would never happen. Maybe it was for the best that he never saw her again. After all, they could never be together. It just stood to reason. Her parents wouldn’t allow her to date, so them being near each other was really only hurting her.
    These were the thoughts that ran through Daniel’s mind as he resolved to forget all about Ella Susan Bryn. He promised himself that that picture would be the last time that he would ever think of her. It was not his fault that he lied to himself, for the very next day, he received a phone call alerting him to the fact that Ella was in the Marcus Hospital and she was not likely to make it past the night. He grabbed his coat on the way down the stairs, calling to his mother that he would be out late.
    When he arrived, he rushed to the front desk and agitatedly requested to be shown to Ella’s hospital room.
    “What’s her name?”
    “Ella Bryn. Could someone show me to her room? I am a close friend.”
The woman typed a couple words and picked up the phone, muttering monotonously into the speaker. She held up one finger to signal her business. Daniel hooked his thumbs in his pockets and blew a sigh into the air. He rolled his eyes before the lady finally told him her room address. Another nurse led him down the hallway, chatting his ear off as they went.
    “Yeah, she’s a strange case, she is. There doesn’t really seem to be anything the matter with her. She just...lost the will to live, I suppose. And no one has come to visit her. She was brought in by this guy she didn’t even know, and you are the first one who has come to visit her. Not even family members. Here’s her room. What did you say your name was again? Daniel, right? Yeah, she was calling for a Daniel. That must have been why they called you in. She kept saying that while she was sleeping and when she awakened, we asked her who that was, and she just started crying. Poor girl. I’ll leave you two alone for a while. Take as much time as you need.”
Daniel entered the room and stood by her bed. Her chest gently rose and fell, her brow knit in a frown. From time to time, she groaned in her sleep, restlessly tossing and turning. Daniel took a seat and rested his hand on hers. He wanted to be there when she awoke.
    Ella drifted through the blackness. When she saw a light in the distance, her instinct told her to walk the other way, but the light was so warm and soothing. When she walked into it, a man greeted her. He was tall and dark-haired and his eyes smiled along with his face.
    “Dear child...” he said, spreading his arms wide, “Welcome to my kingdom.”
    “Is this Heaven?” her voice seemed to pale in comparison to that of the great man that stood before her.
    “Indeed it is, but you must go now, my child.”
    “Must I?”
    He smiled gently at her, cupping her cheek in his hand.
    “Yes, dear one.”
And with that, the light faded again into darkness, and Ella woke in a white room all hung with curtains and a dull pain throbbed in her wrist. She glanced down at the needle that pierced her skin. A shadow sat in the chair to her left, and a warmth flooded from it to her at the point where it touched her hand. She moaned and attempted to sit up. Her eyes lit up and she stroked his hand as she realized who it was.
    Daniel sat up and groaned. He could feel a soft caress on his hand. He looked up. Ella was awake! He got down on his knees, and kissed her hand.
    “Didn’t think you were gonna make it out of that one, princess. You gave me a scare for quite a bit.”
    He nodded and a tear slipped down his face, falling on her cold hand.
Ella, too began to cry, and she reached, shivering for his warm embrace. He wrapped his arms tightly around her, and pulled his hands through her hair.
    “What happened, sweatheart, what happened?”
She did not answer, only sobbed onto his shoulder. When the nurse came to check on Ella Bryn, she was fast asleep with a soldier sitting with her, his arm wrapped protectively around her.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Down Days - Deep Stuff

Why, hello, everyone. :) I hope you all enjoyed your easter weekend. I certainly did. I took a HUGE step in my christian life and I got baptized.

I don’t talk about a whole lot of deep stuff, but today, I am feeling deep, so I am going to talk about down-days. A friend of a friend is having some troubles. Family-wise and also don’t know. But I really just want to take a little bit to say that depression and cutting and suicidal thoughts are real, and not something to be made fun of for. I have some experience with a depressed friend. If it helps you, here are some tips for how to comfort them and make sure they do not do something that they would regret.

First of all, it really depends on what is causing the sadness and depressed thoughts. Family issues are generally inescapable. Really all you can do is let them know that they can tell you what is going on. Make sure they know that no matter what, you will be there for them. People need to know that they are loved. It is a natural instinct put there by God. If a parental unit or sibling is not fulfilling their role and loving your friend, you need to fill in a couple positions. This has always been easy for me. I have always had a motherly instinct toward people who need someone to talk to, but really try your best on this one. So that is for familial problems.

For school problems, (bullying, being sworn at and such) STAND UP FOR THEM! If you see someone beating up on them, tell them to shut up and go fix their own life before ruining someone else’s. Also, don’t hold anything back. Let them know what you are thinking. Don’t beat up on them because A) that would make you just like them, and B) you might be the one who ends up getting in trouble. But stand up for your friends! Show them that you  care enough about them to make sure they stay out of bad situations.

Lastly: Religious problems. I am a christian. I believe in God the father, maker of Heaven and Earth. I believe that love is commitment, and God is love. Whenever I notice that a friend of mine is being religiously challenged, I make sure to first make sure I know what is going on, and second, let them know I am praying for them. God promises that if we go through all the challenges he has to give us with faith in him, he will provide us with the strength and grace to keep going. (James 4:6 & 10→ 6 But He gives a greater grace. Therefore it says, “God is opposed to the proud, but gives grace to the humble.”
10 Humble yourselves in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you.)

So there you have it. Talk to them, know what’s going on, and pray. I hope this has been helpful to you. If you have any questions or anything to add on, then please please let me know. Also, if you have just an opinion, I would love to hear it. Comment or email me at thanks. :) Have a wonderful day.

Friday, April 18, 2014

People Come and People Go: A Dedication to Zach

Heyyyy. Sorry it's been a while since I posted.

I would like to dedicate this blogpost to my friend Zach. He is moving a long way away and I know that all of us here are going to miss him.

The hardest part of any friendship is when it's time to say goodbye. As much as we might like things to stay the same, change is an inevitable part of life. The universe may seem huge and the rift between friends on opposite side of the world may seem a great distance. There are many tools available with which we can communicate, but even without these tools there is a secret that only real friends know, and it is this. All the mountains and valleys in the world cannot separate friends whose hearts are as one.

I just thought this described everything perfectly, so thanks, Zach for being an amazing friend. You were awesome and so fun. I loved knowing you, and you had better visit like every couple months. We love you and you will be missed. <3

Monday, April 7, 2014

My Favorite Show... Almost

Hello, everyone. It really has been a while since I have updated this thing. Well, on request from a friend, today I am going to talk about Doctor Who, the BBC TV show. If you know me personally, you are likely to know that I LOVE BBC. It is pretty much my life online. Sherlock, Doctor Who,I love it all. I am also a shameless nerd. There, the secret is out. Now everyone knows. I, Marissa Makil am a nerd. So for those of you who don’t know, Doctor Who is a TV show about a time traveller. His Time Machine-which also travels through space- is in the form of a Police Box because the chameleon suite is broken. It is called the TARDIS. That’s Time And Relative Dimensions In Space. He picks up humans, and more often than not, they fall in love with his world: That of adventure and danger. The Doctor is a Time Lord from Gallifrey-a planet-which was destroyed during the Time War several hundred years ago. He is the last of his kind, and thus is very lonely-hence his want of human companions. He is kind and compassionate, and he is alive with energy and he never stops running. The Doctor goes on adventures of the strangest kind, always making new friends. I personally have already fallen in love with his world. It is strange and amazing and I have my friend Grace to thank for getting me into it. So now you know what Doctor Who is. If you have time on your hands, take a look at it. I can almost guarantee that you will be enchanted and fall in love. Thanks for taking a look at my blog today, everyone. I hope you enjoyed yourself.