Thursday, August 27, 2015

"Lonely Nights"

Hey, gems.

I wrote flash-fiction!!! :) I thought I'd share. It's only a couple pages. Not very long. (Is that still flash fiction???) ;)

Anyways, it's called "Lonely Nights".

Here you go. :)

Elise walked out of Subway - her third job in the last year - And intertwined her fingers with his. Half-smiling over at him, she swept her thumb over his knuckles. As they continued on their way home, a thought shot into Elise’s head.
“Can we have an emotion conversation for a minute?” She heard him smile fondly.
“Of course, Lise.”
Elise sighed and gripped his hand a little tighter. She couldn’t get close enough. “A year ago, when I was 19, and really for the couple years before that, I never thought I’d find anyone.” The dark prevented Elise from seeing his smile disappear, and become replaced with knit brows.
Elise bit her lower lip. “Because...” she sniffed her tears back, “I never had. And the world kept saying...’not pretty enough...not smart enough...not tough enough.’ and finally, I believe that I would never be enough of anything. My friends-they were all getting in more permanent relationships, and Janis, living with her, and watching perfectly decent people throw themselves at her, and get rejected...I could I ever be that amazing?”
Their fingers tightened again, providing comfort for her as she continued.
“I...have never loved anyone like I have loved you. You’re just...too good to be true.” She felt a kiss light on her head.
“I love you, Lise.”
The tears could no longer be held back. They filled her lower-eyelids and finally began dripping into the dirt at her feet. “And I...I will never get tired of hearing you say that. I love you all the more for always reminding me of that.”
Silence followed for a few minutes, only filled by Elise’s occasional sniffing.
“I know...that I say I love you a lot. I’m sorry...that I’m difficult, and not as pretty as some girls, and that I need to to try several times before convincing me that you love me back, and that I am good enough for you, and I’m sorry, Adam, I just love you so much.”
“I love you, too, Elise. I always will.”
More tears spattered on her toes. “Never leave me?”
“Oh, Adam,” she said, whispering now, and holding his hand as tight as she could, “You’re so too good to be true, and I wish...I wish...”
“I know, Lise. I know.”
Sobs wracked Elise’s body as reality set in.
“Adam, I wish you were real.” the tears came freely now, she didn’t even try to hold them in. Anyone watching would have seen the dark silhouette of a crying girl walking on the sidewalk. Elise wept, hoping against all hope that maybe her wish would come true. She sighed, and blinked away the remaining tears from her eyes.
Please, Adam. Please be real.”

Her fist finally closed, breaking the charade she had carried so far, and finally admitting to her heart that there had never been anyone there.

There it is. I hope you guys enjoyed. (Yes, that's the end.) I thought of it while I was on a walk tonight. :) Please give me feedback!!! :)

Blessings. Have a wonderful week :)

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Something Near, Something Far

Hey, guys! Sorry for the silence. I went to Washington state for two weeks, and didn't have WiFi most of the time.

Sooooo all of you need to go because it is absolutely gorgeous. There are mountains everywhere, and wet went to Pike's Market (look it up if you don't know what it is) we visited Lion's Rock, and we went to the ocean. It was so beautiful, and serene, and everyone should experience it. We saw a lot of our family, and it was just thrilling.

That's not what this post is going to be about, though.
So I found out that a friend of mine from online may be coming to see me.
Now before you judgers out there judge me (XD) yes, I made sure he's the real thing.
So I am really excited to maybe meet him.
Do be careful, though, when meeting online friends, and giving out info about yourself. It is dangerous, so always be careful. But that's not too say that your should hide in a hole your whole life.
If you meet someone online who you know is legit, and who you seem to really click with, by all means, meet them in real life. Who knows; you may be making a really good friend.

Another thing I have been thinking about lately is marriage. Not because there's anyone in my life right now (there's not) but because I'm getting around the age that most of my friends are getting in permanent relationships.

And like you guys don't even know how much I want to get married one day. I don't necessarily have anyone in mind, just in general.  😉

So I guess this whole post is all too say that even if something is scary, or you have to drive a long way to do it, adventures are always worth it. Always.
Never be afraid of a little adventure.

If you guys are going on any adventures of your own of any kind, please let me know. I would love pictures, or just to know how happy it's making you.


Have a wonderful week.

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Mine, All Mine

Hey, guys. So I was just curious about something. Recently two friends of mine (who didn't know each other until one stalked my Facebook and found the other) started talking. They are both close friends, and this probably shouldn't bother me, but I really dont like them talking. It just really bothers me. I guess I was curious as to whether it was just me.
So, I guess let me know what you guys think about it. Am I completely overreacting? Should I tell one of them?

Thanks so much for reading. I would appreciate your input. :)
Have a blessed weekend.

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Guardian Angel

Hello, gems.

I have to make this kind of brief because I have to get to work, but I was wondering what you guys believe about guardian angels? I guess I've always believed that everyone had their own angel to watch over them. Not that a single angel couldn't manage to watch several people at a time, but I've always found the thought of my own guardian angel kind of comforting.
Obviously God watches over us, but do you guys believe that guardian angels even exist? I know there are some bible verses that say something about them, but isn't it kind of vague?
I don't know. I guess I'm just wondering.
Sorry for being so brief. I probably could have just posted this on my G+ and called it a long post, but I didn't think of that. Ha-ha
So like this post, subscribe, follow me, and give me your opinions on guardian angels! I would love to hear from you!

Love you lots! <3
Have a blessed weekend

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Reaching People

Hey, everyone. So I know that before this morning I hadn't posted anything in awhile, and so I guess I've found a topic. There's no great way to say this, so I'm just going to say it. I had over 400 views on that poem, many people who said they loved it, and plenty of comments within the first seven hours. It means millions to me that I am reaching so many people. When all those emails popped up in my inbox, all I could think was "God is using this to reach people!" I just cannot believe the response to that poem. It is so amazing to me that so many people from so many backgrounds and so many places with so many different, beautiful, lives are all reading one thing and saying "This. This touched me."
So I guess to all of you who shared, added, trended, liked, and commented on 'God made me...' Thank you so so much. It was a pleasure to write it, and I hope that in each of your individual ways, it touched you, and helped you along the narrow road.

On other topics, first of all, I was in Holland MI today. I carved my name (Marisa Lu Makil) into a little black table ticked away in a courtyard down the road from Francesca's. It is the table of to the side by itself. If you sit in the seat in the corner that faces the road, the whole table tips. If any of you guys can send me a picture of my name in the table (you can be in the picture, too.) 😉 then pm me and we can get together for coffee or something.

Second, Hannah is coming to visit me!!! If any of you guys will be in Holland MI this weekend, come to 269 Douglas ave on sunday anytime from 9:30am until 9pm. There's a huge annual youth group/party. Any and all are welcome. Ask for Emma, and she'll tell you where Hannah and I are. I hope some of you guys can come.
Many blessings to you all as we wrap up summer.
Ew. School. 😂

I hope you all have an amazing week. I know I will. ;)

God Made Me

I wrote this a little bit ago, and thought I'd share. I was thinking about flaws and such, and decided to write this.

God Made Me...

God made me loving
So I would love everyone

God made me broken
So I could make sure I never break someone else

God made me hurt
So I could heal others

God made me anxious
So I could learn to trust

God made me motherly
For those who don't have one

God made me uncoordinated
So I would know that balance
Is not always physical

God made me compassionate
So I would know his love for us

God made me faithful
So I would know what it's like to be betrayed

God made me insecure
So I could tell others that no one is perfect

God made me human
And uncoordinated that I am

So He could prove to me
That He is stronger than my ups

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed. If you want to check out more poems of mine, go to and look up Marisa Lu Makil. Have a wonderful day. :)